Hurrmmm....

I tried to avoid him...

But when I do....

I missed him...

and my heart and my mind keep reminding me about him...

I realize this will not work out...

but cant delete him from my hard disk...

Oh GOD....

Help me...

Hubby

I’m so sorry... my emotion was unstable... I don’t mean it...

Oh please forgive me...

I was looking for you... I really miss you...

I felt so lonely with out you..

All of sudden I realize that I’m in crush with you...

Me: B A B Y C I K A R O

SONNET #18

by: William Shakespeare

HALL I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate.

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date.

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimmed;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed:

But thy eternal summer shall not fade

Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,

Nor shall Death brag thou wand'rest in his shade

When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st.

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

"Sonnet #18" was originally published in Shake-speares Sonnets: Never before Imprinted (1609).

S o m e b o d y R e j e c t e d M e ! !

Damn...somebody rejected me... GOD..hubby...I can't believe he rejected me.. Some guy say that Baby got a booty like pow,pow,pow... Baby got some boobies like wow oh wow... But he rejected me..!!

Hubby once said " you look so loving sweet with your hijab on and look damn pretty without your hijab.." My Gosh.....but he rejected me...

My friend once said... Great things i love about you is your humble attitude... and your crazy sense of humor... But GOD why...he rejected me...?? He really pull me down.... Distract my attention... Distract my emotion!!!!

B A B Y C I K A R O

He called me Babe...

He makes me happy.. he cheer me up.. he add energy to my life.. He make jokes and make me addicted to it. Well, I'm not desperate, but he makes me feel comfortable, and the most important thing, he makes me feel young and let me see how to enjoy life.

I am young, but the feeling of mine when spending time with him can't be bought anywhere in the world.. Oh my Gucci… I’m so addicted…

I am addicted to him, addicted to the moment which cheer up my day and the feeling of being appreciated. He appreciate me from head to toe, and keep on telling me how his feeling grow as times goes by...

All of sudden, I realize, his is not mine, and I am not his. But nothing is impossible in this world, miracle might happen… May GOD bless me and show me the best way to my future…

L I F E 2

Being a grown up isn’t as simple as ABC. As we are enjoying life, it comes with lots of responsibilities and liabilities. As time goes by, we get mature. We gain thousand of experiences. Some taught new ideas and makes us grow up and some passes just like the wind.
Life is beautiful, it is and will always be. But it also depends from which aspect we see it.

Having a relationship or precisely having a commitment is not an easy task. All I can say based on my experiences and my flowing dilemma, it needs lots of sacrifice, patients and a careful planning and acting. For every steps, thinking twice, carefully and deeply is a must, and not forgotten to remind yourself of the consequences and risk. And the most, people will always take for granted , is being prepared on what will come next, either positive consequences or negative.

Like the oldies said, people changed as times goes by, but some doesn’t where it would be a very small percentage. Some changed positively with positive life development. But some vice versa.

Most of the time, the early stage of a relationship seem to be the best part, but not for all relationship. Some getting better and better as times goes by.
Having an affair is just like a rolling tyre, sometimes we’re on the top and sometimes you’re at the bottom. Well, in Malay they called it as “liku-liku kehidupan”. I like the pronounciation…

Life is Unexpected...

As I grew up, life is expected to be much easier and better than before. Yes, in terms of financial and social networking, it seems to be that way. Not forgotten educational opportunity and facilities.
But life isn’t that easy, life is full of surprises and uncertainty. Like the oldies always said, we’ll know it when we found someone which God dedicated to us. May be at the moment, I kind of “know” that. But it seem doesn’t last for a long time.
But then, it happened again and again and again and comes with challenging environment. This always offered challenging decisions. Well, don’t judge me to be ungrateful, I’m a human being. Like the oldies said, human learn from mistake, trial an error. And people always said, “Follow your heart”.
One great person, whom I can’t remember his name said, when something good happened, we might like it very much, but sometimes it not good for us and vice versa. I can’t say life is unfair, it makes me sound ungrateful.
OMG!!! A guy commented on me, “She is an average girl, nothing special.” But another said “She is sexy from head to toe, I like her. She is my taste.” And he keeps on hunting me. I guess the abstractness of woman beauty could explain that situation.
I’m very grateful because there are people out there who appreciate me and love me as whom I am. Thank God, I’m grateful to have this look, size, and shape. I’m very-very-very grateful.

When..

Errmm..... when we have a steady boyfriend... is it wrong if we have ordinary boyfriend which is as close as best friend? Is it wise for us to let go which ever activities that we like, but he don’t like..? Is it wrong for us to hang out with other man? Which is a friend of ours?

Life is kind of confusing to me...I’m in dilemma...

If...

If I were to share you with someone else, why can’t you accept it to share me with somebody else...Don’t be greedy..

And if I were to accept you as who you are now, why don’t you...I hate comments on my outfit..on my hijab...please... Take it or leave it.. This offer only comes once, well based on your request and my promise...

Bee,

Having a steady girlfriend, is not like having your cute Viva, where you can lowered it, tint the glass and change the original rims to sports rim... My advice is...try to accept HER as what she is... I know you love her...and you like Me... But please think twice and I prefer you to have only one of us... and I can accept it very well if our relationship is just Friends...

Bee,

I’ve been honest since the day I met you, but You keep on bullshitting on me... Why? It is not that I will say NO.. We are friend rite...

If...

If I were to share you with someone else, why can’t you accept it to share me with somebody else...Don’t be greedy..

And if I were to accept you as who you are now, why don’t you...I hate comments on my outfit..on my hijab...please... Take it or leave it.. This offer only comes once, well based on your request and my promise...

Bee,

Having a steady girlfriend, is not like having your cute Viva, where you can lowered it, tint the glass and change the original rims to sports rim... My advice is...try to accept HER as what she is... I know you love her...and you like Me... But please think twice and I prefer you to have only one of us... and I can accept it very well if our relationship is just Friends...

Bee,

I’ve been honest since the day I met you, but You keep on bullshitting on me... Why? It is not that I will say NO.. We are friend rite...

L I F E

Hrrrmm......belum apa apa ku dah mengeluh...my God.. People said “Live life to the fullest..” but..i’m tired...tired of restrictions...tired of limitations...tired of being guide by guidelines... hey let me free... i want to fly freely like a bird...

"Please God..i need a fun and exciting life... "

Kenak Owhh...

Dalam kegembiraan...pasti ada kesedihan...dalam bergembira pasti bersedih.... Sik paham aku... Mungkin benar.. idup tok umpama kain putih...tanpa liku2 idum...nya putih jak jak lah...sikda bunga2 ngan warna lain yang menambahkan keayuann nya....nakkah kacak kakya di polah baju kurung ka kebaya ka...hehehehe angol na nyawa ku ko....angol....angol.....